Never Being able to figure out what it means to be a man. Never Being able to have anything more than a screwed up life. This is a story about a misunderstood boy trying to find himself in this world.

"I feel the fire her desire I scream aloud in ecstasy as she feels ever emotion of mine intertwined with hers even for only this moment in time"

His life is crazy more than anyone could understand. Things are moving way to fast for him to understand and give out his final goodbyes. He doesnt understan everything so he can't ever grow up. Lost in an insane world. One parent abandoned him and the other didnt even know how to take care of themself. Abandoned and alone. Addicted to drugs, some were given to him by his own mother. A lost soul. All he ever wanted was to have someone that truly cares about him. A person that he could protect and keep safe while she did the same. One that wouldnt abandon him like everyone else. He continued to make bad descisions. He cheated on his girlfriend twice. He was accused of rape. More police reports were filed. He felt like he was trapped in a box where everyone looked in at him. He wants his friends.
His friends are his only true loves in his life. Things have changed since has left. The small freshmen that he knew that practically worshiped him, have grown up now they are mighty juniors. At one point he had a rather interesting friendship with a girl. The girl was practically a toy for his own amusement, the girl was corrupted. He had become her drug and like any addiction she needed him. She became just like him. The girl slowly resented her family just as he did his. She was sour towards her friends other than her bestfriend and him. Of course he didnt know that she practically loved that kid to death. He left. He didnt keep in contact. The girl got worried. She was still infected. she was slowly healing.
then out of the blue. He began talking to her again. By this time she was half way healed. Day after day she got more ill. All the people that she ever liked or was interested in were alot like him. His stories, his little adventures that she had heard about were putting her in doubt. he left again. and she started healing again. she ran into him at a local ice cream place...at that time her and his freshie friend were going out. he began talking to her regardless. and she lost interest in the guy that she was with. All of the memories of the girl and him haunt her everyday when she talks to her now ex. Her ex was a replica of him. He was going through more trouble. He was addicted to many drugs, his mom provided them. He doesnt understand how to grow up. The girl is growing up. She still hasnt healed. He doesnt understand how much his friends love him. The people that took him in began to say that he was the reason that their marriage was all messed up. They hated him because he doesnt believe in god or any religion for the matter. He is just a normal human being he makes mistakes. even if he makes them to much and makes them over and over again. He needs to find his wendy and grow up. He needs to love and be loved. That's all everyone wants is to love and be loved. Thats WHAT EVERYONE WANTS. Don't judge people by appearance. He only looked up to a father that did horrible things, got in trouble with the law, and bad grades. He set a bad example.
People blame our generation but has anyone sat down and realized that who raised us.
This young man...its not his fault...he needs help...he wants so much...but cannot get it because no one wants to help him. The girl wants to save him. But what can she do. She is just like him. Trying to grow up. But I can say that little girl is no wendy. Do to him she was rebellious, a bad ass, doesnt give a shit, but like him she needs help. She is also a reck of emotions. But sorry folks that is another story thanks for reading.
and this was based on a true story. and it is still being written.